sinnergraffiti

Well, it turns out I'm gonna be a father come January.  My rookah and I are very happy and at the same time a little nervous.  We've decided to get married in October and make a go at it.  We love eachother so, why not, huh?  Knowing I'm gonna be a father and a husband sort of puts everything in a whole new perspective.  I now have to make decisions with the knowledge of knowing that they are going to affect more people than me.  I now have to fly the straight and narrow and not cut any corners.  It will be tough but, worth it.                                 -Sinner

OK so, I'm trying to turn over a new leaf starting immediately.  I'm trying to keep in mind the positive things in my life, such as my sweet sweet rookah, instead of always dwelling on the negative.  I'm tired of stressing out and feeling sorry for myself.  Not to mention, I think it's getting hard for a certain someone to be around me when I'm stressing out and being pessimistic and I love her too much to push her away.  So, with that being said, I'm staring a new day with optimistic outlooks and a new found desire to be happy.  Being a miserable fuck is getting old.  -Sinner

I wish I could stop thinking everyone is trying to get over on me.  I've been fucked over so much in my life that I now think I'm being lied to by everyone I come in contact with.  One minute I'm OK, then the next minute I have crazy bad thoughts running through my head.  It's driving me insane.  I wish I knew what everyone was doing at every minute of the day.  However, I know that's not rational or normal.  How do I stop?  How do I learn who do trust and who not to trust?  People are just so sneaky.  I constantly catch people lying and it makes me sick.  How do I rid myself of the abominable insecurities that live in and take over my entire